Get outside!

I can’t emphasize enough how important it is to get lots of fresh air and sunshine, along with exercise. There is something magic in it all.

Now as our weather is getting cooler, I just love to sit out on our back deck and spend a few hours just reading, in the refreshing air. I have noticed that it really makes a difference in how I feel...and that appears to be...happier.

Forget the blues and have another laugh

Click on the following link to see some funny animal antics on YouTube:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_S_TKqu9pxU

Time for Laugh Therapy

Laughter is very good for what ails us.

Click on the link below to see a funny YouTube movie trailer by that 'movie voice-over guy'.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RMngjDMZTWo

Writing therapy

I realize of course that not everyone shares the same abilities and talents….but for me writing has been my life saver. Actually you don’t have to have any special writing ability to write private articles for your eyes only. It is a great release to put down on paper things that bother you; things you have learned and are grateful for; things that you yearn for and admire. I even read once that it is good therapy to write a letter to someone you are angry at and tell them how you feel. Get it all out of your system and then destroy the letter. Try it.

Exercise therapy

We know the value of exercise when it comes to trying to loose weight and improving our health. But exercise can play a major role in helping our depression, also, so that is why I am writing another post about it.

I know that sometimes my depression and anxiety causes me to feel that I do not want to do anything at all, nor do I have the energy to do anything. But I have to really struggle past that and KNOW, really KNOW and understand that doing some form of exercise 3 or more times a week is the best thing for me to feel better. Really...it is no fun to have that black cloud of depression hovering over me all the time. I need some relief and to feel somewhat normal again as much as I can.

So, I push and talk myself into going to the gym and walking on the treadmill for 30 minutes, as many times a week as I can manage it. And it does make me feel better, honest.

Click on the link below to read a good article about depression and exercise:

http://www.ahealthyme.com/topic/exdepression

What is your hobby or something you thoroughly LOVE to do?

....whatever it is, immerse yourself in it; get lost in it; get renewed giddiness with it. Do all you can to use that hobby, activity or interest to help you through your rough days of depression. Don’t feel too guilty if other things do not get done. Just know, and help your family to know and understand, that this is a temporary outlet to help you get through those days of darkness.

Yes, I know that when the bad days come, we generally do not feel like doing ANYTHING AT ALL...that’s why you must choose an activity that will strongly work for you and be like your medicine.

The activities that I LOVE and which help me are: watching movies, and doing my various writings including my 10 blogs. Yikes!...10 blogs? ...yes, I am addicted and also I love knowing that I can help other people through my various kinds of blogs.

I dread this time of year

As we approach fall each year, I start to get nervous and glum. Something begins to work inside of me filling the spaces with the dreaded anticipation of what looms before me in the coming months.

I have more pronounced depression this time of year because I suffer with SAD...Seasonal Affective Disorder.... due to the fact that the daylight hours are all whacky. Through the last several years, I have been collecting my arsenal of ways to handle the increased depression when it comes.

This blog is all about how and what I do, not only in the fall and winter when my depression is at its worst but throughout the whole year. Hey...it works for me and I hope you can find help with these ways also.

Deep breathing therapy

http://www.improving-health-and-energy.com/breathing-your-way-to-health.html

(see my list on the left, of the different types of therapy that I use to help my depression)

A few weeks ago when I went to the doctor, he said that my oxygen levels were a touch lower than what they could be. It all boiled down to the way that I breathe, as I am a shallow breather.

I have known for years that deep breathing exercises is very important for our health…and brain function. The more oxygen to the brain, the better we think and the healthier our brain and other organ systems will be. Closing our eyes and doing some slow deep breathing can also help stress.

The problem is that I don’t always take the time to pay attention to my breathing, just as long as I know that I am still doing it. But I have to try to be more conscious and make myself take deeper breaths. I wonder if that is a habit that a person can adopt...and get better at unconsciously?

Photo therapy

Calming and serene scenery can do magic for what ails us. When beginning a relaxing and de-stressing session, we are instructed to visualize in our minds eye a beautiful, peaceful place that we would love to be at.

Here are a few of my favorite types of scenery that calm and relax me:

Music therapy

Certain music can do wonders for depression and all that goes with it. Personally, I just love the music of Kitaro. For me it is soothing, relaxing and uplifting.

Here are the links to a few of my favorite pieces of his, from his live shows.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9ulc51ZOGQk&feature=related

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=H2FFDDWz3R0&feature=related

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HfVntSicF8Q&NR=1

I found a very helpful website on depression

It is called “The Depression Guide”.
http://members.fortunecity.com/depressionguide/

click on the chart below to enlarge...

"Footprints in the Sand"....very uplifting

To be read and re-read often....

For what it's worth...

...... a YouTube video on depression:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8G19oeJD8Nc

Movies...my life saver

I watch one or more movies each day. I don’t care what others say about watching movies being a waste of time. For me it is my life saver. I can relax, un-stress, totally and fully enjoy, and get thoroughly LOST in a movie. It doesn’t matter what movie it is, I enjoy a lot of types.

I think perhaps the most therapeutic type of movie is a good comedy that makes me laugh till my sides ache. My view point about watching movies as a therapy measure, is that it takes my mind OFF of what is troubling me for awhile so that my mind can relax and calm down and regroup itself. So, movies are for me !

I have started another blog devoted to the movies I have seen. I give the description of each movie and offer my own opinion about it. If you are interested, here is the link to my movie blog:

http://moviesmytherapy.blogspot.com/

Can't I just work through it myself ?

I don’t want to be on any meds for my depression. True, my form of depression is mild compared to other peoples, still it sometimes leaves me not able to function quite like I used to. But I can accept it and deal with it.

I feel the methods I use, explained on this blog, works for me, even though I turn sometimes within myself. I can handle that because I am not a people person anyway and most of the withdrawal/escape happens when I know that I will be in a large group of people. STRANGE HOW THAT DOESN’T BOTHER ME WHEN I SIT IN A MOVIE THEATER FULL OF PEOPLE AND GET LOST IN A FILM !!!

Some of the places/activities where there will be large groups of people, is generally places/activities that appear to no longer interest me like it use to, due to the fact that I am getting older and my interests have changed anyway. So, I choose to just work through my depression episodes by myself, without the aid of meds. By the way, I am also an introvert by nature.

Depression...such an elusive illness

I wish I could completely and fully understand the complexities of depression. Without medication, I deal with mine…and I know my depression is very mild compared to other peoples.

One of my friends, who also has chosen NOT to take meds for depression, is right now suffering terribly. For now, he has shut himself off from others, saying that his depression and mental pain are more than he wants to deal with.

It is so puzzling to me. Why does it have to be such a varied problem? Why does almost everyone suffer with depression in different ways and degrees? Why does one person that I know, who is ON depression meds…still does not feel and act right and has trouble functioning in his life? Why does another person I know, who is also ON meds…lives a fairly normal life, contributes to society and can enjoy doing the things she likes?

The human mind is so complex.

On the other hand, maybe we MUST

Continuing from my previous post:

Then, there are many, many times… and situations…when I begin to feel claustrophobic and nervous in a group setting or when the noise level starts getting high. I have realized that my sanity depends on getting OUT and away from that setting. Many times I just have to leave, or not participate at all. I figure my emotional well being is far more important than the social event. I have also realized that in really tough situations it does not do me any good to try to stay and just “get over it”, as it stresses me out even more. So, as far as I am concerned, it’s OK to leave if it starts getting out of your control.

Try harder

Do we play tug of war with ourself?

The other day I talked to a friend who also struggles with depression. Her depression is a little different and more difficult than mine; she takes depression meds, also, but I don’t.

I guess the medication helps her deal and function with the illness. She is able to accomplish most of the things that she desires, and talks herself through unpleasant and uncomfortable moments.

Though my depression mainly brings me down in the winter (I have SAD…Seasonal Affective Disorder), I still have brief sad moments throughout the rest of the year and I have a lot of trouble feeling motivated to do anything. I had made the decision many years ago that I did not want to be on meds.

When my friend said that she talks herself through uncomfortable situations, a light came on for me. I wondered if I give in too easy with the “avoid it” solution. I must try harder to talk myself through MY uncomfortable situations….and not be so quick to take the easy way out, which is to not do it at all. I know that growth comes when we can overcome a difficulty.

Amazing story

Brain researcher Jill Bolte Taylor got a research opportunity few brain scientists would wish for: She had a massive stroke, and watched and studied her own stroke as it happened ...as her brain functions -- motion, speech, self-awareness -- shut down one by one. She has become a powerful voice for brain recovery. This is an astonishing story.

Click on either of the links below, to watch the video of her account:

http://www.ted.com:80/index.php/talks/view/id/229

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UyyjU8fzEYU

Take time to laugh at our self

I do all sorts of weird things now a days and I just laugh at myself, because it is better than crying. Depression, aging, and all sorts of things cause us to become too serious at times. So I love it when something makes me laugh (besides “House, MD”)

I was sent the following, in an e-mail...


MENTAL HOSPITAL PHONE MENU

Hello, and thank you for calling The State Mental Hospital. Please select from the following options menu:

If you are obsessive-compulsive, press 1 repeatedly.

If you are co-dependent, please ask someone to press 2 for you.

If you have multiple personalities, press 3, 4, 5 and 6.

If you are paranoid, we know who you are and what you want, stay on the line so we can trace your call.

If you are delusional, press 7 and your call will be forwarded to the Mother Ship.

If you are schizophrenic, listen carefully and a little voice will tell you which number to press.

If you are manic-depressive, it doesn't matter which number you press, nothing will make you happy anyway.

If you are dyslexic, press 9696969696969696.

If you are bipolar, please leave a message after the beep or before the beep or after the beep. Please wait for the beep.

If you have short-term memory loss, press 9. If you have short-term memory loss, press 9. If you have short-term memory loss, press 9..

If you have low self-esteem, please hang up our operators are too busy to talk with you.

If you are menopausal, put the gun down, hang up, turn on the fan, lie down and cry. You won't be crazy forever.

If you are blonde, don't press any buttons, you'll just mess it up.

Surviving

Yes, some days are very difficult. But try very hard to go with the flow, ride the waves, and hang in there. We can make it!

It's okay to want/need time alone

I recently returned from a trip to see my granddaughter get married. For two days I was around lots and lots of people, as the events and plans for the reception were taken care of and executed.

Needless to say, as an introvert, I was overwhelmed with so many people and talking and noise, etc. This is NOT a negative statement against these particular people....they are all wonderful individuals. The problem lies within ME, as it is a trademark of an introverted person.

So, for a couple of days after I returned home, I truly enjoyed shutting myself up in my little apartment, enjoying the solitude and peace and quiet so that I could re-energize myself. After that, I was fine again. So it is okay to want time alone for awhile to rest and regain strength and perspective.

Commercial for "mental illness"

I was watching TV the other day and a commercial came on, of which I did not pay a whole lot of attention to at first and so I hope I get this right...it was something about the fact that we have/need certain different GROUPS of our friends to do certain things with, or for them to be supportive of us in different situations....but that it only takes 1 (one) special friend to be there and stand by us when we struggle with mental illness.

Finding that "something"

Some of my days are so repeatedly boring that I have to really think about the things I truly enjoy doing, and then make myself DO THEM !

I have created projects that I would like to accomplish/finish...such as photo albums for my boxes of photos. And I have discovered that I LOVE to write...creative writing I guess it is called. I think about life in general for a moment and get a particular thought about one thing, and then I write my thoughts and feelings about it.

Struggling with depression...it is crucial to our mental and emotional health and well being to keep busy.....any kind of busy that will occupy our thoughts away from the SAD down times, is a good thing. We need to find that “something” within us that will help to soothe and calm "what ails us".

Our inner child

I am told we all have an inner child....My interpretation of it is: that child-like part of me that desires to be carefree and safe, and where my most tender feelings and thoughts reside. I feel my inner child is strong and desires for me to be all that I can be.

What does your inner child feel or think about you?

And what do you feel and think about your inner child?

For me...my inner child longs to be free from the heavy burden of my sometimes mental and emotional up and down problems. My inner child loves me and I love my inner child. I desperately desire to be like my inner child....but I don't know quite how to accomplish that.

I just now had this thought: .... “is that why I retreat within myself a lot” ?

Click on the link below for an interesting website about our INNER CHILD:
http://www.coping.org/growth/little.htm

Get a life

I spend way too much time at this computer....I’ve got to get a life!!!!

But I LOVE writing on my blogs and reading other peoples blogs, and checking out this and looking at that... I’ve got to get a life!!!!

But I learn so much from my travels on the computer and internet. Time goes by so quickly when I am on the computer.....I’ve got to get a life!!!

My writings are good depression therapy for me as is everything I do on my computer, along with loving to watch movies and getting myself lost in them. For the moment....this IS my life!!!

By the way, I will give another plug for my new blog: “Movies....My Therapy”
http://moviesmytherapy.blogspot.com/

I am Miss ornery mouth ! (revised)

It is either old age, not feeling well, or something else that is contributing to my new found ornery mouth. Lately, I find that I have less patience, a shorter fuse, and the lock on my mouth seems to be broke!! I hope this phase improves before I get myself into trouble. Maybe I need MORE alone time.....or three days of straight movie watching !

NOTE: I have just started a new blog called "Movies...My Therapy". If you are interested, click on the link up at the very top left of this blog where links to my other blogs are. So, if you love movies like I do and they help your depression days, too, you can read the descriptions and opinions I give on the movies I have seen.

Knowing and understanding that I am an introvert has helped me so much!

.... I N N I E ....

Oh what a blessing to finally discover that I am not all alone in my feelings and habits of not being a people person or not feeling comfortable in large crowds or social events and struggling with carrying on a conversation with someone.

It is such a good feeling to know that I am not “weird” for enjoying time being just with myself. And that I am ok because I don’t WANT or NEED lots of social life and tons of friends.

Discovering that 1/3 of the population is introverted, brings lots of comfort and greater understanding and acceptance of myself. I am a normal introvert and that knowledge has brought me such relief!

There is a book called “The Introvert Advantage...how to thrive in an extrovert world”, written by Marti Olsen Laney, Psy.D. The author herself is an introvert. The book shows introverts how to work with, instead of against, their temperament to enjoy a well-lived life.



If you are interested in the book, click on the link below:

http://www.theintrovertadvantage.com/advantage.html

My anxiety came out of hiding

! ! !


Gosh.....I thought my anxiety problems had vanished. It has been so long since I have been bothered by it in any large degree. But Sunday in church someone shared a bit of information with me about the health of another person and the possibility of it being contagious. I had recently visited this person but was not aware of her health problem.

Being VERY mindful of MY health and situations that I was having, this bit of information was alarming to me to the point of being obsessed with thinking and worrying about it ..... and boy my mind and emotions immediately began to get worked up into a state of anxiety. It was interesting to me to be able to analyze the change that came over me in a matter of minutes. I had never had the opportunity to consciously delve into my feelings like this before. It certainly was an eye opener for me. How very quickly the mind and emotions can take over a person and distort everything.

So...to calm my anxiety, I had to go back to this person who gave me the news and talk further with her and get more facts. This put me at ease and the anxiety began to subside.

Mental and emotional problems....isn't it just wonderful!!!!!

Online tests to determine your personality type

I very recently took two online personality type tests (one was the Jung-Myers-Briggs test) that also determines what percentage introvert/extrovert a person is. It was very informative....and such an eye opener for me to learn so much about myself. It was like everything came together and made sense because it was explained to me how and the reasons why I feel like I do, personality wise.

I discovered and understood for the first time that I really was a dominant introvert (but I don't hate people). No wonder I have depression problems. No wonder I am an introvert......a depressed introvert!! No wonder I love so much alone time. No wonder I struggle socially.

The two websites had tons of information for describing all the areas of personality that was determined by the test.

In case you would like to take the tests, here are the links:

http://www.personalitypathways.com/type_inventory.html


http://www.humanmetrics.com/cgi-win/JTypes2.asp


ALSO....I found a website created by Marti Laney....a website FOR and about introverts. Marti is a psychotherapist specializing in introverted clients. She herself is a strong introvert. She has lots of information on her site PLUS there is a forum on her site just for introverts. It is very fascinating and extremely helpful to read the questions and posts from other introverts. I learned so very much in just the little while I spent reading about these peoples lives, feelings, thoughts, problems, discoveries and questions.

Here is the link for Marti’s website:

http://www.theintrovertadvantage.com/index.html

What are your most favorite relaxing, peaceful places in town?

When I am depressed, I like to be surrounded by something, or some place that thoroughly gives me joy, great pleasure, and where I can feel totally relaxed and peaceful.

Lately, I have been scouring our town for some of these places. I have made a mental list of MY, now favorite, relaxing areas that I can go to. Here are some of them:

Duck pond by golf course

City Park

Within park, overlooking a trail area

Virgin River

Small waterfall on part of Virgin River

Exercise ???

Depression takes on many forms and everyone is affected differently. Generally, depression leaves us with not much desire to do anything or go anywhere. So.....that means that we don’t feel like doing any exercise, either. That’s how I feel, anyway.

We all know how important it is to exercise and the many great benefits we gain from it. Exercise alone can lift us up out of our down days.....you’d be surprised how much it can be like a magic pill.

I have really been struggling with getting going at some form of exercise. Each day my body has been feeling tighter and stiffer and more achy. I have been really concerned and have tried to get motivated to do something, so that I don’t get worse. I want to lose weight and feel better...to have better health.

So, a couple of days ago....I did something very important for myself....something that would really be an incentive and motivate me to get that exercise. I made a commitment. I went to a gym (Gold’s Gym) near our home and got a membership. You sign a contract for a certain length of time at a certain set amount of money each month. Now I know that I MUST get my moneys worth out of that gym by going all the time....and that is my plan!

Are we harboring guilt and regrets?

Recently, a friend of mine asked me the question: “Do you ever get the feeling of regret for some of the things from your past”. My friend suffers a lot with depression.

This got me thinking. How much of the depression we suffer, stems from issues from our past that have not been dealt with, solved, or had closure to?

We ALL have made mistakes and wrong choices in our life that we regret and wish we could go back and do differently. We realize things that we may not have done right...or things we should have done and didn’t.

I try to make restitution for the situations that warrant it. I ask people’s forgiveness if that is the solution. But above all....above all....I need to forgive MYSELF. I need to stop beating myself up all the time over these issues.

The weight of carrying guilt and regret around for a long time can make us bent over with mental and emotional pain, depression, and self dislike. By taking our burdens to the Lord and asking for his forgiveness, strength, and help to forever, once and for all be able to lay these burdens aside, after we have done all that WE can do.....brings blessed relief and peace.

Serenity Prayer

God grant me the serenity

to accept the things I cannot change;

courage to change the things I can;

and the wisdom to know the difference.

It takes a lot of effort sometimes

Having depression causes me not to want to do anything much at all. I have a struggle finding interest in something and my idleness leaves me with too much time to think about my down feelings.

The days I PUSH myself to leave the house and go do something for other people, are the days that I feel much better about myself... and that grey depression cloud lifts a bit.

Just the other day I went to the hospital and visited a friend who had surgery. Then from there I went to a care center and visited another friend who is not doing very well. I was very glad that I came out of myself and made the effort to do that.

OF COURSE I will feel better if I get my proper sleep regularly!!!

Z Z Z Z Z Z Z Z Z


With my computer addiction, I have had trouble getting myself to bed at night when I should. There for quite awhile, it would be 3, 4 or even 5am before I would finally shut the computer down and head for bed.

Reading up on circadian rhythm... http://healthlink.mcw.edu/article/922567322.html .... in regards to our sleep/wake patterns....it is important that I not allow my body to get more artificial light and activity beyond a certain time at night, than my body is programmed for. If I do, I throw my body out of whack. (anyway that is the gist of it according to my understanding).

The older I am getting and the more I abuse my sleep patterns, the worse I was beginning to feel. I would try to go to bed earlier but it never lasted more than 2 or 3 nights and then I would be back into my old habit of staying up until 5am again.

I knew I was headed for big serious health problems if I didn’t do something to change that habit for good. Now I am striving to go to bed at a decent time and it has taken me about 2 or 3 weeks for my sleep patterns to regulate them self again. I can’t believe how much better I feel and how much more energy I have again. I don’t feel groggy all day and my brain is not in a fog. The more night hours (natural darkness) I sleep, the better I feel.

Bad sleep habits certainly do not help depression one bit. Better, longer sleep and plenty of sunshine and fresh air can work a miracle for our down days.

Let's try something.....

An experiment = results = a way to help yourself = a happier you

Depression causes us to turn everything inward, to our self. Let’s try an experiment to help that a little bit. Then, when our days are dark and blue, we can use the results of the experiment to help our self feel better.

1. Get an 8 x 11 size sheet of lined paper and a pencil with an eraser.

2. Go to your favorite place in your house or yard.

3. Sit in a comfortable chair, and have a glass of your favorite beverage by your side.

4. Now....take the pencil in hand, and number your paper from 1 to 25, double spacing.

5 Begin...think about all the things that give meaning to your life and of which you are deeply grateful for. List each one briefly on the paper and keep going until you have 25 different things listed.

6. Using a magnet, put your paper on the front of your refrigerator and when you have your down days, take that paper, read it and remind yourself of all the things you have to be grateful for in your life. Give thanks, put a smile on your face, and then go do something nice for someone.

Today is the first day of Spring!

First day of Spring!......now we don’t have any excuse to feel down in the dumps today, people. Right? The Winter drearys are gone. Get up and go outside, do some deep breathing exercises, and rejoice and give thanks.

Sunshine, fresh air, and doing what we love to do

Sun therapy...being outdoors soaking up Mr. Sun and Vitamin D...both of which are important in the defense against depression.

I feel that there is something refreshing and magical with being out in the sun and breathing in the fresh air....especially if there is a little soft breeze and the scenery is lovely. I love to take slow, deep breaths and enjoy the moment. And now that spring is about here, I can truly say that I have “spring fever”, because I can’t get enough of the outdoors. Seems that the more I can just relax out in the sun and fresh air....the less severe my depression bouts seem.

Another thing that helps me, is doing the things that gives me the most enjoyment. One of those things is my writings. I write about my feelings and thoughts on a multitude of various topics of life and things. Doing the things we love to do....and doing them with all our heart and to the best of our ability, is what brings us joy and lifts us out of our down periods. And if the things we love to do can also help other people, then how wonderful is that.

My "mental closet"

A friend and I share with each other our ups and downs of depression. We compare notes and analyze; we try to help lift each other; and we certainly try to be there for each other and be supportive and encouraging.

We have both come to the conclusion that when we have our down depression times that we apparently go off to our own mind place for awhile to work things out. We get mentally away from what is troubling us and causing our depression at the time. We even, upon necessity, get away (sort of) from people for a short while, also. After a while we are able to realize that things are not as bad as they seem at the time. At that point we can handle our self and those troublesome problems.

We have lovingly called this mental away place....our “mental closet”. Here in our mental closet we take the time necessary to sort out and work out the things that have sent us into our depression. It could be family problems, it could be high expectations we place on our self, it could be disappointments, fears, frustrations, and overwhelmed about something.

Our mental closet is a time-out place (a room in our home, a nice quiet park, a drive in our car, etc) where we can digest and comprehend and learn about and express our self. It is a place to fully get a hold of our emotions, and a time to gather our self and define our thoughts.

I am NOT talking about deserting our families. But with their love, compassion, understanding and support, they will allow us the short time we need to work through our difficult times and then come back refreshed, being our old selves, and feeling like we can handle things again.

Some days the roller coaster of life gets too scary

I expressed some of the following words to a friend earlier today, then decided to use them on this blog to maybe help others who feel the same way. When we know we are not alone in our feelings, it somehow helps.


Many times when something rocks my emotional and depression levels.....I can’t function like normal for awhile. I can't take care of what needs to be done...and I can't think clearly or even FEEL like doing the normal (whatever that is, anymore) stuff.



Any changes mentally and emotionally is a scary thing for me. It is like I can't get a handle on it. When anything happens....I go into slow motion mode and try very hard to get a grip on things. By relaxing myself and getting away for awhile from the "thing" that rocked my stable levels, I am slowly but surely able to get back into my somewhat norm again. And if we end up landing back on our feet once more, isn't that a good thing?

Are you in a rut?

Are you beginning to feel like your life is in a rut? Does each day and each week just seem to be a complete repeat of each other....nothing new, nothing different ever takes place?

I realized I was in a rut the other day as I pondered why I was feeling different than usual. Yes, I am prone to depression and blue days...but this particular day I didn’t even feel like watching a movie. Now movies are my great escape and life-saver for my down days, but I knew something was wrong when a movie didn’t even appeal to me.

Ok....I must be in a rut, I thought, as I considered my daily and weekly activities. Nothing exciting to look forward to...nothing different to do...nothing venturesome and new...nothing but the same old stuff!

So now I see the solution to my so called rut. I must c r e a t e some new interesting activities and fun stuff to do for myself. Now comes the job of discovering what those are. There are lots of possibilities.....